loved

Nothing too exciting..
today i was so so so so so so tired. again...
i met with the guy from the soccer club last night and its perfect! its just like 1 mile or 2 mile walk from the preschool.. i will either go there tomorrow or friday. he was soo excited! ha and so am i :)

but today i was so tired. one of those days at the school where i feel incapable and unqualified.
but the bible says to boast in my weaknesses! so yah.. i have no idea what im doing! haha ...
i only have 2 more days of teaching these kids.. then goodbye party.

oh im going to miss them so much. i love them so much!!
erg my heart is going to break. blaaah. so not looking forward to that.
ill miss them running into my arms and just staring at me... and me tickeling them or laying them over my lap and shaking them like crazy... ill miss making weird faces at eachother and just being silly!! there is nothing like having 300 children as your best friends..
they have changed my life prob more than i have changed theres.
reminded me of simple and innocent faith.. and patience... and unconditional love...
meh. can i bring them home please!!!!

anyways. super tired. took a motor bike back to the house because it was faster ha.. oh well if its a dollar instead of 30 cents. its really fun and relaxing.. and its such a beautiful ride! i wish we had them everywhere in America... they are so fun! and i feel very safe and comfortable.

i walked like 3 miles to get chocolate. ha i wanted it so bad!!! i bought 12 chocolate bars. hopefully that will hold me for the next 8 days ;)
but i was just soo tired and just kinda.. on teh end of my rope. its so exhausting walking around here... because of the non stop staring... its just exhausting smiling at everyone adn getting glared at most of the time or getting looked up and down and just.. idk. it gets pretty old. i was really discouraged... and it was really hot. ha.

i spent the entire after noon just listening to worship music and reading the word...
it went by soo fast. and gave me alot of peace... calmed me down alot and i feel so restored.
it was like.. 3-4 hours of just me and God... it was great :)
the rest of the trip i will have plenty of times like that... and i want that in america.
then i decided to walk up to where i am now :)
and i brought some braclets and head bands incase i ran into any little girls on the road.
the second i left the house a little girl approached me! it was really fun to give her a braclet and see her smile! and then this random woman came up to me just embraced me and was talking in kinyarwanda.. but it was so weird. felt like i knew her forever. we stood there and just kinda laughed and hugged and laughed at the language barrier... but all of the sudden i felt connected to the people here.. instead of like such an outsider..
i did my best to smile and say hi to everyone i could on the way to the cafe and not get discouraged by the stares. ha.
i love peace :)

i just cant imagine saying goodbye to these kids
i feel so loved... there is nothing like the love of 300 kids on top of the the unconditional overwhelming and unexplainable love of a savior :)