milk

I think I had some bad milk today.
mleh... did you know they drink their milk hot here? my stomach doesnt like it... but yah... either way i think the milk was just... bad. kinda gross to think about.
school was fun today... went over subtraction and then i told the kids a story about Ping the duck. a girl had a yellow rain coat so i made her the duck! it was so cute.. waddeling around and quacking. the kids loved it! i think im learning how to just be ridiculous... haha and let loose... more then i do.
then some kids from the other school came to my class... and we sang :)
they got really restles today at the end... i couldnt teach them much because they wouldnt listen...
and i cant communicate. they know silence and sitdown.. but dont always listen. and i refuse to hit them... so yah... hm. its a struggle sometimes.
my heart kind of broke today... for this country.. and these people.
when i was at the school a girl who has been missing for THREE YEARS came to the preshool... teddy knew her and her mother! and we took her to a safe place. she had been sleeping at a school at night..
teddy acted like it was normal... and the girl wouldnt break a smile.. or say a word. makes me wonder what happened to her.. whats the full story?
then teddy told me about her son... he is both mute and deaf... and she smiles and laughed and it just was normal. these things are just normal everyday life for these people!! makes me wish i could do more. i know teaching english is enabling the future generation... but what about the generation running the country now!? idk... just thoughts. doesnt mean my work is any less valuable! and i dont think it.

after school teddy brought me to a place... where i drank the milk.. haha and she bought me a sausage. hm. um. its all just different here. i left almost throwing up... trying to look and act grateful. the meat is hanging outside... so it wasnt exactly appetizing.

then all of the sudden she took me to a saloon... ha and she said you are getting your hair rolled... next week. i was like..haha do i have a choice? but yes i shall... not corn rolls. they have SO many options here. it is crazy! im excited. it will be so much easier to manage.

part of me is sooo tired of being the white girl... having everyone stare at me when i walk down the street. i LOVE how the kids love me for it and yell MUZUNGU MUZUNGU! when im around with smiles and yayaayyayayas! i love that. but i get WAY too much attention from men.
not kidding.. ive got invited to SO many guys houses... it just happened again as i was writing this. he said for tea and chatting.. it could be harmles... but id rather be careful.

i try to just exchange emails and say if you want to chat... keep in touch.
most of them just say they like my friendship and to hear more about america... and they like me and think im beautiful. gotten that soo many times. ha. boosts my confidence... hahaha.
women generally smile. some men smile.. most just stare. if they speak english they are SO eager to say hello!
part of me just wants to walk down the street without all the attention...
another part of me loves it. i feel like a celebrity here... jordy would laugh at that one! ha ha
makes me feel connected instead of seperated.. but also makes me feel seperated. ha.

also.. im kind of getting sick of being touched. and you know i am a touchy person. mostly by men tho... they grab your hands and wrists and dont always let go for a while... idk... just dont like it. hmmmm. everyone wants to hold my hand. ha ha. the kids i love..

we went to another town today.. which i wont try and spell.. where the american embassy is. they dont register there anymore i guess.... and they cant give me malaria pills. ha.
the town around there is muuuuch nicer then here. paved roads and sidewalks... and huge nice hotels...still not america... but more like home.

had a huge rain storm today. it was so hot and then BOOM there it was!
it sounded really cool against the huge leaves of the trees... and the tin roofs.

hm. dont really have ALL that much to say.
i miss cold milk so much!!!!!
and pizza. mom order a pizza on the night i get home!!

oh and hot chocolate... chocolate in any form...

those are the things i miss the most. and butter... oh butter!!

:) thats all for now! i must go sponge down now. haaa